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5:30 pm
gotten my pay liao for the past 2 weeks.... hahaha... 1k plus liao... never imagine within a month can earn 1k liao... so much better than working in NTUC... tough now earning more than last time... but after thinking of e stuff i wanna buy... just felt my earning is so damn little... 1K is so not much enough... hahaha...(handphone, FM radio, SWATCH watch, new jeans, go australia, new laptop.... many more) where got enough????
today is e end of my 6 weeks of working... n checking back the past 6 weeks, i have issued 71 vehicles myself... doing everything on my own, signing agreement, downloading meter... hahaha cant believe it... so much accomplishment than slacking at home... =D
haiz.... can say fun n irriating when pple gossip too much in office... this week had been kanna tease by my collegues that i like this temp gal in the other department... -.-||| just becoz she n i had a lunch together means i am interested in her...... becoz of someone saw us together... den spread the whole news to the whole office... her department n mine.. so kanna tease by them indirectly... u know wat i mean....this really reminds me of tat time during sec 3.... me n qiqi......... -.-||| nv will i forget that.... MARCUS FU!!!
anyway.... school starting... i got so much things i wanna do when school starts.... i felt tat i really been wasting my time the whole time.... i really felt something missing in my life.... i see other pple in poly is so much fun.... but i see myself like lacking of something... like a doughnut... always have a hole in the middle..
9:08 pm
i find tat every life needs a purpose, becoz wif only purpose den u will find life meaning full. studying will not be a struggle, working will not be a boring procedure.
ytd just tok to 1 of my collegues who is e same as age me, studying at interior design in tp, wow... nice subject, n also not easy to get in de. i can see tat she really love her course alot, tough it is stressful, coz of project after one another, but it is fun. she dun mind tat kind of waking up at 6 to go skool, n go home at 9.
i really find tat i have chosen a wrong course for me, tough IT is a good course with good future, especially mobile has a rather big market, but i felt tat i just dun have e interest for it.... tough i did quite ok for the 1st semester, but i find it quite boring to study IT. seeing other courses able to do many different things during lesson, can go outdoor for lesson de. but my course is only in classroom.... facing only e laptop.... a total boring thing....
i now realised tat i am e kind of person who cannnot sit still at the seats for a whole day working on computers. i need to move around de. so i think if nxt time i continue to be a IT man, a programmer, i think i will die e 1st 3 months.... i really cant stand in office working on e computer for 8 hrs a day..... so damnz boring lor.... n i find tat maybe engineering can be a better choice for me ba..... or maybe media arts.... media arts is fun man.... visual n audio!!
altough she got encourage me to change course since i find it a struggle to continue wif IT.... coz it is better for me to change it now since it is early.... than to wait until graduate wif a IT cert den realised tat i dun like IT.... its rather waste of money n time....
but if i change now, i will have to wait another yr for e nxt intake liao.... rite now i really dunno wat shld i do..... shld i change now? or struggle wif it until graduate liao..... den move on to other profession in University(if i can move on).....
rite now is like driving a car w/o noeing where am i going to..... drive round n round e circle where the displacement is 0....(i still remember my A maths) ....
all i want now is a purpose in life,
a purpose tat i am dreaming for....
a purpose tat inspire me to keep on moving towards e goal....
a purpose tat i will never regret doing....
10:11 pm
after reading aldis blog i felt like blogging liao... damn! y every 1 got so high ar? walao me only 1 A+ nia... haiz disappointing man.... am i not hardworking enough or slacking liao?...
btw, i got my pay last monday liao.... $500 for 2 weeks, feel so good to have more money in my bank, n last friday just handed up my time sheet... hahaha $500 more on the way to my bank... i'm rich!!!
shld i buy k750i? or get a FM radio? or go shopping for new shoes? new clothes? hahaha...
been thinking recently wat is the purpose of my life? am i suppose to come to earth to study? den to work? after tat wait till u die..... i really think tat i am wasting alot of time.... really.... i compare myself wif other pple same age as me.... i can see their life is full of excitment, they have really used their time well to do watever they want to do...
their life is full of joy, but mine was a little boring... everyday been doing e same old thing.... until now i didn't even know wat i wanna do in e future... always think of taking a step at a time.... they have a goal in their life but mine was just a waste.............
being young is not long.... soon enough, more responsibility will be added on to you.... n u will have no time for other things except for work..... money........
better use watever time left into good use..................
8:55 pm
HEAH WEI JIAN MATTHEW
9th janary 1988
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